I have always thought of beauty as a flower that is beautiful for a season, and then withers away.
It's like the young girls that you see, with glowing tan skin and long, beautiful hair. They laugh and stars go up in smoke. The power of youth draws lingering eyes nearer their dancing figures. Never while observing this beauty do those who chase it think of the withering that follows.
They will grow old, and little lines and divers will seep into their skin like paths etched into a map.
Some of them will lament the passing of their novelty, they will stand in front of the mirror long after the admiring stares following the swish of their golden hair have passed. In a quiet room, they will stand and count the grey hairs, or the cracks in their skin. It is a lonely sight, but it is not the fate of all.
My grandmother told a story once about her mother, how she was angry with her while he was driving. She was young, and reckless, and wanted her mother's acceptance so badly that she didn't think about the harshness of her own tongue. Her mother, silent and weary drove on in surrender to her daughter. My grandmother, in her slow country drawl, said- "Well, I looked over at her hands and I just started crying because they were so soft and frail. I realized then what foolishness she suffered in me, what she took willingly for love." With a soft look in her eyes, my grandmother would fold her own hands, and there was more beauty there than in any young girl flicking her hair.
So when I see pretty girls, and when I feel pretty, I wonder whether we will have the beauty that lasts inside of us when the rest of our flaunted flower has withered.
I've had a lot of time to think this all over. I must have been eight years old, lying on my bed and wondering whether I would be beautiful when I was a teenager. I decided then that I would rather be kind, hardworking, and strong in spirit. Those things would last if I really started building them. Those things were not perennial. I decided shortly after I realized that young girls bloom into flowers, that we could age into evergreens.
For now, I am but a twig with some branches, among many living green things. Perhaps I am even shorter than some of these stretching buds. There are many trees larger, greener than me. Many flowering trees. Even flowering evergreens. They bloom anew with grace and light and strength each season.
But I have good soil, and I stretch towards the sun each day. I will get there soon.
Thanks for reading,
Kayley Rae
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It's like the young girls that you see, with glowing tan skin and long, beautiful hair. They laugh and stars go up in smoke. The power of youth draws lingering eyes nearer their dancing figures. Never while observing this beauty do those who chase it think of the withering that follows.
They will grow old, and little lines and divers will seep into their skin like paths etched into a map.
Some of them will lament the passing of their novelty, they will stand in front of the mirror long after the admiring stares following the swish of their golden hair have passed. In a quiet room, they will stand and count the grey hairs, or the cracks in their skin. It is a lonely sight, but it is not the fate of all.
My grandmother told a story once about her mother, how she was angry with her while he was driving. She was young, and reckless, and wanted her mother's acceptance so badly that she didn't think about the harshness of her own tongue. Her mother, silent and weary drove on in surrender to her daughter. My grandmother, in her slow country drawl, said- "Well, I looked over at her hands and I just started crying because they were so soft and frail. I realized then what foolishness she suffered in me, what she took willingly for love." With a soft look in her eyes, my grandmother would fold her own hands, and there was more beauty there than in any young girl flicking her hair.
So when I see pretty girls, and when I feel pretty, I wonder whether we will have the beauty that lasts inside of us when the rest of our flaunted flower has withered.
I've had a lot of time to think this all over. I must have been eight years old, lying on my bed and wondering whether I would be beautiful when I was a teenager. I decided then that I would rather be kind, hardworking, and strong in spirit. Those things would last if I really started building them. Those things were not perennial. I decided shortly after I realized that young girls bloom into flowers, that we could age into evergreens.
For now, I am but a twig with some branches, among many living green things. Perhaps I am even shorter than some of these stretching buds. There are many trees larger, greener than me. Many flowering trees. Even flowering evergreens. They bloom anew with grace and light and strength each season.
But I have good soil, and I stretch towards the sun each day. I will get there soon.
Thanks for reading,
Kayley Rae